Текст книги "Rufus super nigrum. Сборник стихов"

L.T.’s A.K. on 2 languages

 
Her little dress is black like soul,
Her curling hair calls to me.
Another step and you’re destroyed.
Within the trap you’re losing game.
 
 
Another one is dancing with her.
And you feel jealous by heart.
She knows it, she tries to fake it.
Like she feels joy, she plays her part.
 
 
Her black skirt has the scarlet letters:
Tomorrow’s «V» today is «A».
And now, and ever her name’s Annie.
Her dress is black like her all fame.
 

 
Ее душа черна, как платье,
И кудри манят в свою тень.
Еще шагнешь ты и в проклятье:
В ловушку заведет, в тупик.
 
 
Еще один танцует с нею
И ревность говорит в тебе.
Она все знает и с весельем
Сыграет роль на бис толпе.
 
 
Под черной юбкой прячет тайну:
И месть заменит адюльтер.
Ей имя «Анна» нарекаю
За черный шлейф из славы сей.
 

(21.02.2020)

Maybe suus iustus meus delirium

«Two seasons dance in my own soul…»

 
Two seasons dance in my own soul.
Two women live in my own heart.
First is a young girl – Lola.
But second is red-hair star.
 
 
And second woman – Margarita,
Who was the Master’s love.
She’s very crazy woman. Evil
With tender face of god.
 

(28.01.2017г.)

«One day I close my story book…»

 
One day I close my story book.
And I will leave this planet.
I will go to the secret nook.
I’ll find the secret chamber.
 
 
And in my soul fire flame
Will burn to shine forever.
One day my story opens book.
To write «believe forever!»
 

(30.01.2017г.)

«In my heart’s blew by the wind…»

 
In my heart’s blew by the wind,
The wind of change, the wind of sorrow,
My soul flounces, grows dim,
I want to fly, but I can’t soar.
 
 
And my Themis is strict and severe —
She doesn’t care what I want to.
Her sentence is my game is over:
And any my step brings my fall.
 
 
And I am staying on my crossroad,
I just want to avoid the pain.
But the wind blows from any road —
And surely it will carry me away.
 

(09.12.2020)

«The darkest time before the sunrise…»

 
The darkest time before the sunrise,
The biggest storm before the calm.
My life was broken by me like glass,
And I was lost through joying swarm.
 
 
Through voices talking about logic,
Through people who want to give their mind,
I’m feeling this is not my thinking,
I skip my move to lose and find.
 
 
I step to darkness praying to God,
I step from rock through tears and cry,
Perhaps, I’m crazy, I don’t get, but
I went to unknown and… Alive!
 

(17.12.2020)

«In seven steps I stand by you…»

 
In seven steps I stand by you.
And every heartbeat is my fate.
I want to run to you, my lord,
But I don’t go cause I’m afraid.
 
 
Your smile, eyes and every breathing
Its are my trap, my favorite cell.
I know you are not my own hero.
You are the villain who stole fame.
 
 
And now and ever my opinion
Will hide by every brand-new line.
As long as I choose not the hero,
My heart will break up by your smile.
 

(29.04.2021)

«And every day I have to fallen…»

 
And every day I have to fallen.
From all the shadows of night.
I ran from me to all of calling.
I lost myself in hellish vibe.
 
 
I wanna know when it’ll over.
I wanna stop and don’t be smile.
I burned myself, I broke my power.
I wanna burn up just for shine.
 

(02.07.2021)

«I draw the line from «then» to «now…»

 
I draw the line from «then» to «now.»
And saw the miracle of dark.
You were my shadow of my downfall,
You are my saver of my mind.
 
 
And every person of my novel
He’s just an image of my dream.
My draw line to future moment
It will be spark in my own film.
 

(08.08.2021)

Prayer

 
I’ll enter in Your room on tiptoe,
I’ll whisper a few words to You.
And finally, I’ll find a freedom.
From all of silent cries and doom.
 
 
Just one redemption I looked for there.
Just one forgiving I will find.
Just one bad day I want to fórget.
And million times I’ll start to cry.
 
 
I wanna know about future,
But I am here today, tonight.
My own way’s my own creature.
I have a million doors for life.
 

(28.11.2021)

«I’ve changed the Moon to Sun for now…»

 
I’ve changed the Moon to Sun for now.
My moon sign’ve turned from white to black.
And every houses on my chart
Are shouting you are on the way.
 
 
All stars are shining like the spark lights,
And planets play their games again.
I’m walking on way to my red knight.
And I will keeping just your flame.
 

(08.06.2022)

Et sicut epilogus – idem amor

«Но сталью я одела грудь…»

 
Но сталью я одела грудь:
И расстояния, и версты – не беда.
С тобой прошли мы длинный путь:
И этот май несу я, как дитя.
 
 
Тоска до неба – где же, Боже, ты?
И где ответ? И правильный ли он?
Но я иду. Иду, вверяя боль средь тьмы
Тому, Кто создал все вокруг.
 
 
Вопрос один тревожит грудь мою:
Как сердце сохранить мне от беды.
Я жду ответ, храня любовь свою
К тому, кто верность мне хранит.
 

(19.05.2023)