Текст книги "Womb Bloom"

If this is your beloved, your life partner, this connection is wonderful and will strengthen your union. Through it you can feel each other without words. Time and distance will cease to exist in your world.

At the start of my acquaintance with my beloved, an interesting event took place which became one of the key signs that allowed me to open up to this person after a long period of reclusion.

Diary entry

Friends! How quickly you leave me and find new friends; the only trace of me in your memories is like a bright reflection on crystal glass.

But I can’t forget or leave anyone; each of you are like diamonds in my memory.

All of you are my threads, my children, my dears. I feel honey-like viscous warmth towards you…

How do you do this? Tell me…

After breaking free from the past I was completely closed to a new relationship, sealed up like a caterpillar in a cocoon preparing to pupate and fly upwards on new wings. I didn’t want to waste myself any more on flippant relationships and I decided to wait for my one and only for as long as it took, as long as was necessary to cleanse myself completely.

That’s how I spent the whole of spring, then summer… And at the climax of autumn’s gold it felt as if I’d just leaped over from Mexico into Moscow’s Indian summer. I was like a hungry female wolf in the cold concrete forest of Moscow. Where had the palms, earth and nature gone? Was everything here really covered in asphalt? Would my feet not be able to sink into the hot sand on the ocean’s shore?…

My beloved and the hero of this book, Jonny, phoned me just as I was going up the escalator in metro Komsomolskaya to meet a corporate trainer for dinner. Jonny asked me: “Are you at Komsomolskaya? I don’t know why I came here. I felt that this is where you are.” I was unnerved. There was no way he could have known about my meeting. It was a completely spontaneous meeting; about an hour before Jonny’s call, the trainer had called and confirmed a place. I went out of the metro and met Jonny at the exit. He’d parked close by…

Let’s get back to the cleanse and find out what is at its core.

Start by preparing the water. Boil about a litre of water and then cool it to 37 – 38 degrees centigrade using this special technique. Place the jug of water on a windowsill or another place where moonlight can shine into it. This way, you will charge the water will lunar energy; the energy of wisdom and femininity. The ideal time to do this practice is during the full moon.

The next stage is to charge the water with your intent. Rub your palms together to make them warm and then hold them over the water 3 – 5 cm from the surface while formulating your intent with sharp precision e.g. “I intend to free myself from past ties (you can name the person or people here)”. Your intent will be put into the water’s structure.

Another way to charge water is to cup your hands together, raise the water to your mouth and talk your intent into the water. Next hold your palms over the water or place both hands around the jug. Your intent will be transferred through the warmth of your hands. You can add rose petals or any other flower petals you like to the water. I’ve also used quartz crystals from holy places to charge water. First I squeezed the crystals in my hands, transferring my intent to them and then I placed them in the water for 20 minutes.

When the water is ready pour it into a syringe. You might have to repeat the procedure a few times depending on the size of the syringe. Important note: you must use all of the water you have prepared. Place the end of the syringe into your vagina, and squeeze the water into it. Don’t forget to disinfect the syringe beforehand. While you are doing this, continue to say your intent in your head: “Water, water, cleanse me! Let everything I want to get rid of flow out with water”.

This procedure also has a practical side; it can be done the day after your period has finished. It helps clean your womb from remnants of blood, and the added rose petals will impart your ‘flower’ with a pleasant scent.

Partners’ readiness

I was free. This was a fresh gulp of air for me. Like a bird, I fluttered out of a cage riddled with misunderstandings.

I now had the chance to find my other half – the person who would accept me as I am, who wouldn’t try to refashion me, the person I would want to have a child with.

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I am writing this book with all honesty and I don’t want to sweeten the things that you will go through over these 9 months. That’s why before going there, it’s better for you to become conscious of what you will encounter, one way or another.

Your whole life and all your relationships will change forever from that very minute. Things will not be as they were before but something that wasn’t there earlier will come into your life. And who comes depends on you…

It will be better for me to write what may await you during your pregnancy and after childbirth at the start of the book rather than at the end.

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Before conceiving from a man, it’s important for a woman to understand what awaits her further down the line. Because for a man, however good a person he may seem at first glance, the birth of a baby is a serious test. It’s a test for both partners of course. But a woman is better adapted from the start; she is programmed by nature. She carries the baby 9 months under her heart and then breast feeds it. While she is pregnant she gets used to being with the baby 24 hours a day and feeling it inside her. The baby acts through her constantly. Its hunger is her hunger, its needs are her needs. And finally, when the baby comes into the world she is morally ready to interact with it.

Now and then a man sees his woman’s growing belly, and even when the baby is born, he can’t immediately grasp the meaning of: “Wow! I’ve become a father!” And not only become a father but taken on a new, huge responsibility which requires effort daily, hourly and on a minute-by-minute basis. A woman’s task here is not only to perceive all that is happening, but also to share this with her man. A new life has come to Earth, a life carrying his genes filled with his blood.

Unfortunately many fathers only understand this when their child is 5 – 10 years old. Sometimes realization comes too late. Many marriages collapse in particular after children are born. It’s too difficult… the man wants love, attention, and now there’s this little creature…

Hormones play with a woman’s body and can sorely test both partners’ nerves. During pregnancy a woman can become capricious, feel repulsion towards her partner, and heap a whole load of other surprises on the future father’s shoulders. What’s to be done? She’s pregnant and the only thing that remains for the man to do is to resign himself: “Ok, I’ll bear it for 9 months”. After birth the story doesn’t come to an end. The most interesting period begins… We’ll get to that a bit later on…

Conception

How can I explain conception? How can I find fitting words to describe the miracle that is bestowed on us? The Divine touch, a moment of Truth, Fusion of two different beings, a gift of Love. An almost inexplicable magic that takes place in our lives and changes them forever.

This is the main moment in a child’s life. It is this moment that defines the child’s future; whether she will be energetic, healthy, happy or…

Conception is like a code for a program. After the start button is pushed the program begins to be carried out and we will be mere observers of its realization. The smallest of details play a role here; how, when and with whom conception takes place affects the chain of events which will unfold.

The seed planted in soil, in the mother’s womb, will give birth to a particular type of plant. And the quality of the earth which receives the seed, the quality of the mother’s womb and her state of health influence how the seed will grow.

I often get asked why some people are full of energy from the day they are born, and others are not. Many answers are hidden in the sacred moment of conception. That's why it should be approached and prepared for consciously.

How to prepare for conception

For a long time I was taken up by the question of preparing for conception. I would often ask my mentors about it and also try to find the answers myself.

I can now say that the main secret is Love – sincere feelings from man and woman to each other. When there is love, both want a child. Their hearts are open and knowledge about what to do and how to do it comes by itself, flows through their bodies and fuses to birth new life.

There is no doubt about the fact that a woman needs to prepare for this moment. First and foremost, her body should be clean, healthy, filled with strength. The soil which will receive the seed should be bountiful. It should not be a wasteland made desolate by past ties, sucked dry by the weeds of someone else’s thoughts, energies and intentions.

Virginity is the ideal state for a woman to conceive in.

When a girl becomes a woman by losing her virginity, she receives new life inside herself.

Virginity is an immense gift for a woman. It is her power and much has been written about the topic in Vedic sources and other ancient texts. I will talk about this in detail in the chapter Woman’s gift.

But it is far from common for conception to take place when a man comes into a woman for the first time. And, unfortunately, for many women this does not always happen with their first partner. This is why, before a woman conceives, she must fully say goodbye to the past, let go of everything that should have been let go of a long time ago so that no loose ends are left trailing behind her, and clean her heart, mind and body from all that happened somewhere, sometime with someone…

She must go into conception as pure as is possible for her. Virgin in all senses of the word.

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When the sacred moment of conception takes place, it’s very important to be conscious of it. Both partners need to put their maximum strength into it – their intent for the child to be born robust, healthy and strong. With your two energies interlaced to the rhythm of your heartbeats, a third creature comes to this Earth – a completely new life.

Here both are creators. And if one partner is not ready, persuasion is not the way to make them ready. If your chosen one does not want to or is not ready to become a father then it doesn’t pay to trick him into become pregnant from him. All the negative information will have an effect on the child, one way or another. Children feel distinctly whether they were desired or not. And a child can suffer from this their whole life.

What fundament does such an act lay for the creation of life? Lies?

You don’t really want to hear blame addressed to you during your pregnancy, even if a man later makes peace with the situation and accepts his unplanned sweetheart. But already in a mother’s womb, a baby understands everything and is very sensitive to the energy waves coming from both parents.

A child is the unity of two people, and both should take full part in its creation, aware of what they are doing. If one person doesn’t take part but only their physical material does, what kind of child will be produced?…

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Each of us feel with our sixth sense whether we were desired or not. You can close your eyes and ask yourselves. If you weren’t part of someone’s plans, you will feel the deep pain connected to this inside yourselves. It leaves a mark that affects the rest of your lives. The pain is extremely deep because it’s the very first pain of life that is experienced, but even this can be healed. These people act like children who have not received enough love and hold an overarching grudge towards everyone. They weren’t desired by their parents and feel as if the whole world doesn’t desire them either. They believe that no one will invite them into their game, and that in order to achieve something in this life they need to break through walls and locked doors.

If this is your story, then you have a lot of work to do on yourself. But start at least by accepting that since you’ve already been born, it means that the world called for you and wanted you, and that’s why you’re here. You’ve been sent down from nothing other than the sky itself and that’s why you are unique.

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A baby is not a way to keep a man by your side. There’s no need to keep anyone close to you by force. If someone wants to go, let them go. Let people be as they are.

Since when have we women started to run after anyone?

A woman’s nature is attraction. She just is and everyone comes to her…

If there’s already conflict between partners, a baby won’t resolve that. The conflict is between you two and no one else so resolve it between yourselves. Why tangle a third person into it, especially an innocent child?

If a man isn’t ready to take you as his wife i.e. not ready to take on the responsibility of marriage, can he be ready for the more serious responsibility of being a father? Do you even need such a man? Maybe there’s no point in wasting your energy on those who are not ready to be with you wholly and fully, with full responsibility, depth and totality. It’s better not to even start a relationship with men like that. Don’t get involved because we women easily get drawn into the vortex of relationships, but it’s much harder for us to get out of it.

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A child should only be conceived in love. Then it will be energetic, active and have a twinkle in its eye. Listen to your heart and your intuition; they will lead you to your other half, to the one who will become the father of your children. Believe me, if you meet him, you won’t walk past him; you’ll feel it straight away. Your heart will start racing, shivers will pass through your body and you won’t be able to think about anyone else except for him. You will recognize him… if you meet, of course. How?

Everything will be very simple. You won’t have any doubts. Your heart will know that he’s the one.

When I met Jonny I just forgot about everyone and everything. I was ready to go to the ends of the Earth with him. I would reply “yes” to every “yes” from him and vice versa. I was ready to marry him and have a child with him that very day. I’d never experienced anything like it in my life rich with experiences. I didn’t feel a trace of doubt. I saw that this meeting was the Universe’s generous gift to me for all my searching. I almost had to die, go to rock bottom to finally meet him. And it happened.

When doubts, arguments and criticisms appear, when you start to weigh up the pluses and minuses in a man, that’s not love anymore. Creating a child is a huge responsibility. But you need to go there through the Heart, not with mercantile thoughts about how much he earns, his IQ, connections, relatives… Listen to your heart. What does it feel? Be honest with yourselves.

And so, conception… Let’s go back to the magic music of two loving hearts.

During union a woman should be relaxed to fully open up to her partner, let a part of him into her sacred womb, open her heart to the flow of altruism, giving, generosity. The seed should fall on fertile ground which has been stroked to warmth by the sun’s rays and is moist from rainy orgasms. The man as gardener should take care of his woman – the Earth —throughout her whole pregnancy, watering her with attention and gently tending to her for the seed to germinate and turn into a beautiful flower; a child.

Healers say that it’s best to conceive during the waxing moon or full moon. We and all other beings on planet Earth do not live in isolation from each other; we are connected to the whole Universe and the events taking place in it, especially to the cycles of the Sun and Moon. Men are more connected to the Sun and women to the Moon.

There’s a legend that women came from the Moon and every month they pay her tribute in the form of their periods. When the Moon waxes events take on strength and energy and potential grow. The full moon is a time to see the results of one’s efforts, conclude events and to reap fruits from the harvest. A woman has the ability to change her monthly cycle and manage it. There are special exercises allowing a woman to make her period start or stop at any moment. To do this a woman must be very conscious of her centres, ovaries and be able to work with the power of intent.

It is possible to tune one’s cycle to the rhythm of the moon’s cycle. This gives a woman particular strength in her interactions with the world. Being in tune with the moon’s cycle means for ovulation to take place during the full moon. The egg matures during the waxing moon, which is a period of active growth, communication, creativity. Menstruation itself happens during the waning moon – a period of rest and relaxation where it’s better to be one on one with oneself. If this is true for you then conception will also take place during the strong phase of the moon — the full moon.

Exercises for couples

True love is always mutual.

My mentors in Mexico taught me that at the moment of conception all your cells should be activated, your intent should be completely pure and sincere, your consciousness at its peak to the extent that you can feel energy, be aware of your molecules vibrating, of the egg joining with the sperm. Then it will be a very vivid act and the baby will be imparted with a lot of consciousness and knowing from the very start.

There are special exercises that help couples feel each other better, tune into each other, become closer and connect in harmony: Ocean’s Breath, Energy Exchange, Joint Dreaming, Bridge between Hearts, to name a few.

Ocean’s Breath

Both partners sit back to back. One partner breathes in, gently curving their back and brings their chin to their chest. At the same time the other partner breathes out arching their back and brings their head back. Contact should remain between their two bodies.

Ocean’s Breath 1

Then they do the opposite; the first partner breathes out and arches their back, the second breathes in and curves their back.

Ocean’s Breath 2

And so the movements continue. They are carried out smoothly, one movement flowing into the other with each person fully in the moment, breathing deeply through the belly. In this meditation connect with the element of water by imagining that you are an ocean. Each inhalation and exhalation is the tide coming and going. Breathe through your mouth as slowly and loudly as you can, imitating the sound of waves breaking on the sandy shore. This meditative practice allows you to feel your partner’s rhythm and connect to each other not only on a physical level but also on an energetic level; the back is a more energetically open area in a person. We’ve already learned to protect each other from the front and wear masks while contacting the outside world, masks which sometimes become so strongly glued to our faces that we cannot even open up and take them off when talking to our close ones. That’s why we’re more open and unprotected from the back and touching back to back we can truly see our partner and discover their unmasked self.

Energy exchange

This exercise is for balancing out energy levels between partners when e.g. one partner has too much energy and the other doesn’t have enough. This technique will also help you calm down and feel balanced when one or both of you are tense, overexcited or emotional.

Men often have a build-up of energy in their solar plexus. Women can use this to build up energy in their stomach. The same goes the other way round; women can share their energy with their man when they have too much in their stomach, and their man is lacking in energy.

Description

Option 1: the woman lies down with her hands resting by her sides. The man lies on top of her and tightly grasps her hands, squeezing her fingers in his hands. They begin to breathe in unison, taking deep breaths in and out. Their breathing is calm, even, deep and comes from the stomach. In this case the man gives away energy and the woman receives energy.

Option 2: the woman lies on top of the man, grasps his hands and squeezes his fingers. They also breathe in unison. Energy goes from woman to man.

This technique can also be used to exchange different types of energy and to become more familiar with your partner’s energy – with its colour and aroma.

Joint dreaming

This technique is carried out when we are asleep. What is it for?

Often when we are in waking life we cannot truly feel our partner because our thoughts, behavioral programs and judgments are in the way. And sometimes we simply can’t hear body language.

When we are asleep our body relaxes, our mind calms down and lets go of its control. We become more honest with each other, more capable understanding the person next to us and connecting with them and their energy without encountering any hindrance from masks worn in daily life.

I recommend these exercises for couples to develop a deeper understanding of each other and join their energies. At a more advanced level, partners are able to consciously meet each other in their dreams and dream the same dreams.

The practice begins with both partners lying down in preparation for sleep… But not just in any way. I will describe one of these poses. Both partners lie down on their sides with their backs to each other, legs slightly bent and feet, lower back and sacrum area touching. They tune into each other’s breathing and begin breathing in unison, either breathing in and out together, or one partner breathing in while the other breathes out and vice versa.

‘Joint dreaming’ exercise

Bridge between hearts

Both partners sit facing each other. They look into their eyes, place their left hand on their heart and their right hand on their partner’s heart. They visualize their hearts opening up to each other, flourishing like flowers and opening their petals to the sun in the name of Love. They imagine a pink ray going from one partner’s heart to the other’s heart and a heart connection forming between them. This is very important since most couples are only connected through their sexual or intellectual centres, while the heart remains closed…

Bridge between hearts

Partners direct their love, tenderness, affection and elevated feelings to each other through this bridge between hearts. They express and transmit them with the help of deep breathing and eye contact. No words, just breathing.

Nowadays words are like drawings in the sand; the wind blows and they disappear. Words are forgotten and not valued by people. Maybe nowadays there are simply too many words…

So come back to the source of Love’s knowledge, learn to communicate with your loved one through breath and the heart and the uncharted world of man will open itself up to you more deeply than if you were simply to talk to him. And the world of woman will open up for man…

8 personality types

The healers shared a law with me that the whole of nature is subject to: each person is born with a specific energy structure, a personality type which determines their development, character traits and disposition. Women are characterized by 4 winds – North, South, West and East. Men by the 4 elements: Fire, Earth, Water and Air. North is connected to Fire, South to the Earth, West with Water and East with Air.

This is a particular energy, something given to us a priori and unique for each person. It can be used to develop ourselves as individuals or ignored.

In this age the law has expanded to include two wind combinations for women:

North-west,

North-east,

South-west,

South-east.

And two elements for men:

Hot Air or fiery Wind (Fire and Air)

Boiling Water (Fire and Water),

Moist Earth (Earth and Water),

Typhoon (Earth and Air).

How does it happen?

One wind is given to a woman from birth while the second one can be acquired during the course of life or imposed on her by parents or society as a more acceptable behavioral model. Healers say that we need to discover the wind or element we are born with in order to open ourselves up as fully as possible in this world. There are special practices to do this. Here is one of them.

How to determine your element

Have you noticed that sometimes when you lie down to sleep facing a certain direction, you sleep well and feel energized, while if you sleep facing another direction we can feel tiredness and fatigue on waking, as if we hadn’t slept at all? Try doing the following:

Lie on your back, close your eyes, bend your knees and place your hands on your stomach. Connect with your body, don’t think about anything at all, take a deep breath in through the nose expanding your stomach, and a full breath out. Breathe like this for a few minutes while lying motionless. Then slowly start moving in a circle, pushing yourselves with your legs. Imagine that your stomach is your axis – the centre you are rotating around. Move slowly and monitor your sensations. Your direction will be signaled by particular feelings arising. It’s difficult to say exactly what kind of feelings because it’s different for everyone. Some people feel warmth, pins and needles, a sense of calm and so on. The most truthful indicator is relaxation. When you have moved around the whole circle, stop where you feel most comfortable. Then take your compass and check what direction your body has chosen. Experiment with it a few times. Your body will always choose its direction. Before going to sleep lie with your head facing this direction and you will see the effect next morning. If you really managed to find your direction then your body will truly relax, you will sleep well and after waking you will feel fresh and energized. This exercise helps overcome insomnia and calms the nervous system. The body really rests and replenishes itself when facing its direction – the one given from birth.

There’s a variation on this practice. Try to determine the points of the compass beforehand. Then choose one direction e.g. North and lie with your head facing in that direction. Sleep in this position one night or a couple of nights to be completely sure. Take note of your state every time. You can even write your feelings in a diary. After that sleep facing South, West and East. Your direction is where you feel most comfortable of all.

When you find your wind or element you will be able to understand what you need to develop in yourselves first and foremost, what your strong and weak points are, where your talents lie, and what course of action is best for you to take according to your wind or element. Whether you should flow like water, burn like fire, blow like the wind, or stand strong like a mountain. You can find out about the characteristics of each wind in my book Womb.

There is also a 5^th element – the centre. This is a natural leader, organizer whose role in life is to attract people to themselves, bring them together and direct them. Due to its complex structure the fifth element’s character is changeable and that’s why the parents of such a child often don’t have it easy. Usually the fifth element is born under dual zodiac signs e.g. Pisces, Sagittarius, Libra or Gemini. The least problematic children are women with a southern wind or men with Earth as their element. These are the most pleasant and easy-going people.

Healers say that during childbirth a mother can influence what the baby’s direction will be, or what their complementary wind or element will be. The mother lies down so that the baby’s head will emerge in the direction of the desired wind or element i.e. if she wants a southern wind for a girl or Earth for a boy she should lie with her head facing North. This is only possible with a natural birth.

Parents’ expectations of their children

Many mothers and fathers are filled with the expectation that when their child grows up, he will support them, help them, be their sponsor, love and respect them, become the person they envisage them to be and choose the profession that they propose for them. And of course, marry a noble prince or genuine lady of the manor. All these expectations lead to massive misunderstandings between parents and their children in the future.

Do you think that your child will fulfill the things you didn’t manage to do? Do you think that your child will choose the path you show him? Do you think that he will marry the woman you choose for him or the man who in your opinion will be the best husband for her?

Push these illusions aside, don’t expect anything in return and don’t bet on the fact that someone will appreciate your hard work in the future. If you have no expectations there will be no reason for sadness. And if everything turns out as you wished it to, that will be something to celebrate. Act without expecting anything in return. Give what you can. And remember that the essential ingredient that children and all of us need is Love. Real love which is able to let go, stand aside, not manipulate through emotions or violate others with its ‘love’.

From the moment a baby leaves its mother’s womb and the umbilical cord is cut, he or she belongs to the world. The baby is Earth’s son or daughter. He has his own path, life and destiny. She has freedom of choice, given to all of us from birth.

Who are we then? We are simply helpers who aid the baby to sit, crawl, walk etc. We don’t teach anyone; we simply show them the world around us and share our experiences with them. We come into this world to teach ourselves, not others. There’s no need to try teaching someone close to you, be it your husband, wife or children. We can only offer our view of a situation to our child, give advice and warn them of any dangers ahead. But do not under any circumstance become tyrants who force their image of the world upon their child, especially when they are already 25 years old.

When a baby is inside his mother, we can give him the best of what is in us, keep him safe, bear him to fruition and go through birthing together. After that we feed him milk, rock him to sleep, hold him close to our breast. In the first few years of life a baby is very dependent on her parents. She is almost helpless; she needs to be dressed, have her nappies changed and bottle held. But the older a child becomes the more independent he becomes and the more interest he shows in the surrounding world. And we simply need to accept that sometimes this can be very complicated.